Archive for October, 2009


NaNo ’09

rebelSo I’ve committed to the insanity otherwise known as NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. Each November, over 100,000 participants around the world attempt to write a novel in 30 days.  The goal is 50,000 words (approximately 175 pages).  If I write every day of November, that comes out to 1,667 words, or 6 pages, per day.  I’ve never written anything remotely close — even in grad school, even when finishing my thesis.  But what the heck…

The thing is, I’m not writing a novel. I’m writing a memoir, which I committed to finishing this year in some god-forsaken previous blog post.  So according to the NaNo forums, I’m a NanoRebel… yeah, I like that.  They even gave us a special logo.

The official time starts in T minus 2 hours.  Here goes…

Of Life and Laughter

Seriously?? Life is so frickin’ weird. Hilarious actually… like I can’t stop laughing. As Sean Stephenson says in his kick ass book, Get Off Your “But,” “I’ve learned to focus my focus on one solitary question: What’s funny about this? This puts all my conscious awareness on seeing the comical side of any situation and the resulting laughter takes care of the stress.”

Two weeks ago this guy is serenading me with gorgeous songs and a guitar on his front porch in SE Portland, asking about dating me, and today he’s joined a Franciscan monastery. Awesome…

The guy I swore I would not date has won my heart and the one I thought I would date shrouds himself in tortured unavailability.

Funny stuff.

I am thinking about the power of our souls to pull exactly what we need out of this life experience. And from this perspective, all I can do is chuckle.

There is harmony in the flow of the universe… If we allow ourselves to relax into it, to become one with the music. There is only the current, the pouring out of love and the experience we came here to partake of. In that, there can only be gratitude… and laughter.

On the Occasion of My 31st Birthday

On the Occasion of My 31st Birthday

What a life this is!
The spontaneous adventure of following my bliss, of living, of loving
The exchange of sacred energy.
Creating, sourcing from pure potentiality.
My heart explosive with joy,
I wrap myself in the color of pleasure,
Stare into the face of my fear,
Breathe… Laugh… Celebrate.

31 and so alive.